Lost Heart

• Units. I miss the feeling of being ahead. I haven't had that all school year. Even though I often whine about the mad amounts of Asian parental pressure that comes with this ish, I can't deny that some deep-rooted part of me misses all the checks in my Unit Tracker that really should've been there months ago.
• Countless trips to Agincourt library. ♥♥ And at least two books read!
• Manga + DSi + hot chocolate. 'Nuff said.
• Finally making use of all the 35mm film stashed in my drawer.
• Movies, all the time. Must-see: The Princess and the Frog. I have this huge Disney Princess-shaped hole in my heart that needs filling.
• Going back to what I'm good at: design.
• A new decade (read: moving on to better things).

/

Oh and

No matter how much life's disproving me as of late, I really want to believe that some things last. It would just be good to believe in a forever, you know?

Oh, wow, there's another version of a PV for w-inds.'s Paradox that I haven't seen yet. Apparently it's called the "Fun ver." It doesn't look like fun, actually, but only because this was played as the ending sequence to a program called Fun.

My God, just looking at this PV makes me laugh. The noob-ish editing. It's like someone just got a new video editing program and was like, "Hey, I wonder what this does! Oh, it looks like someone barfed up the word 'Paradox' all over it! AWESOME!!" The little CGI sparkles from the sand coming from Ryohei's hands. It was just awful.

The thing that really set me off was their outfits. Holy shit, were they awful. Ryohei's colors didn't even match Ryuichi and Keita's. Ughhh. I don't want to talk about it.

BY THE WAY, I'M SORRY FOR MISSING YOUR CALL TODAY, ALLISON. I WAS PLAYING THE WII DOWNSTAIRS.

A BEAUTIFUL SIGHT
WE'RE HAPPY TONIGHT
WALKIN IN A WINTER WONDERLAND

I'm going to wait for the scanalations for MOMO because this month's chapter didn't really interest me even though there was a major plot point.

( MOMO 18 (spoilers) )

The Diamond of Heart is still so lolzy. I can't take it seriously because the art still isn't that great and I find myself mocking the story more and more. Ohhh, boo hoo, Keigo! Sob, sob, Himeno!! Ahahahaha.

( The Diamond of Heart 5 (spoilers) )

Because I only skimmed through December 2009's issue briefly for chapter 4, upon reading my hard copy of it, I laughed at Mamoru's English.

Mamoru: 彼女に触るな... (Do not touch her.)
Julian: 真守...なぜ君がそんなことを？ (Mamoru... why do you say such a thing?) 君は彼女のなんなんだ？ (Who are you?)
Mamoru: 彼女は僕の恋人。(She is my lover.)

Man, Shinjo Mayu must've had someone who was really good at English because the grammar is great. Still, "who are you" is a pretty confusing translation for "kimi wa kanojo no nan nanda"; I would've preferred "what is she to you?" because it made the next sentence have more sense.

I was also reading Kiss Me Host Club and there was this one character who was half-American, and he spoke some pretty funny Engrish too. "How I envy you!" FFFFUUUU WHO SAYS THAT ANYMORE. WE JUST SAY, "I'M JEALOUS!" I showed this to Allison and it was really interesting that Japanese speak English more formally... but then again this could apply to anyone who learns a language. I remember having this talk with Andre and he said I learned the "school-taught Spanish" instead of the "ghetto Spanish." Of course schools and most textbooks won't teach you slang.

Shinjo Mayu apparently likes to draw her characters having sex naked, because there is nearly no chapters where Himeno is not naked. And chapter 4 had a lot of shots of Himeno hugging Keigo naked. HAHAHAHA.

Surprisingly, I had a Christmas-related dream and songee was in it. It was such an a amazing dream that I must record it here.

( Read more... )

God, one of the reasons why I wish a lot of people paid attention to Ojamajo Doremi is so that less stupid people won't vandalize the Wikipedia articles. I mean, every once in a while I'll peep in to look at them and there's always someone in those 5-10 people who regularly edit the articles who puts information about the dub that never existed or their fan characters (AKA SOMETHING STUPID).

Here's one of the oh, so dumb edits I mean:

Luna Tsokorayuki (巻機山花巻 機山花 Tsokorayuki Luna ? )Lorena Martins
{{anime voices|Ryoko Nagata(Japanese)/Kelly Sheridan (English)
Age:11-12(from seasons 3-4)
Date of Birth: November 01, 1991
Color:Indigo
Instrument:Drum
Musical Note:Ti
Fairy:Titi
Crystal:Deep Blue Crystal-Chamed Diamond
First Appearance:Ojamajo Doremi #, Episode 03
Became Witch Apprentice:Motto! Ojamajo Doremi, Episode 01
Luna Tsokorayuki,a.k.a. Luna-chan,is a tranfer student who was born on Halloween,and was very fond on watching scary things.She had the witch ability and can read future using her playing cards,with the presence of moon(her name was named after 'moon').Her parents were both worker,her mother was a astronaut,and her father was a scientist.Her hair was indigo,her skin complexion is fair,and her eyes were possibly deep blue.She became friends with Doremi and others.Because of her their friendships becomes stronger.She also transforms as a witch apprentice and help her friends to do their tasks.

This poster was anonymous. I'm not pointing fingers or calling out anyone, but let her dumb example be something you should never do on Wikipedia. And, if you're the one who posted this —

DUDE. I don't care if you make up fan characters or anything. I actually don't have a problem with that at all. It's only when you pretend they're anything but fan-made that it starts to grind on my nerves. Wikipedia is not a database for your fan characters; it's a website based on aspects of democracy and anarchism for people to contribute something factual. FANON =/= CANON.

Welcome to the last full week of school of 2009. No wonder it looks like a pain in the ass.

Monday: As always, I'm confused. Whatever. Maybe this time I should really do my best to get this off of my mind and really get on that schoolwork grind. Just get through until break. Don't lose focus. C'mon Katrina. Once upon a time, you were absolutely brilliant. Bring back that genius. It's time she fcking wakes up from the year-long nap she's been taking. Be strict with yourself. Set limitations, set boundaries. GTFO OF TUMBLR. Don't go on the internet unless you need to reach someone or do research. Okay. Okay. Go. SLEEP HAS NO MEANING.
Tuesday: I'm really friggin disappointed in myself. What happened? I guess I just took my smarts for granted. I let myself become lazy. And now look. Now look. I also can't believe I let something distract/consume/bother me to the extent that I'm fussing more over that than the state of my grades. Not saying that grades and school and education will always always always come first... Well. Ugh. It depends. Right now, it kinda needs to be first. Bleck. What in the world. Sigh. Well at least my Sociology project is pretty much done. I'm contemplating really starting my Psych paper or reallyreally studying for the test/quiz/whatever I end up taking tomorrow. Right now it's around 9:45pm. I'm probably going to spend about an hour trying to decide what to do. That always happens. I did go on tumblr. But they were on forced random breaks throughout the day. Blaaah. But. Kmoy coming over today was fun. Hahaha. Wtf. Even though I wish I didn't get distracted by stuff on tumblr (LOL -.-) it was good bonding. I now have a somewhat more decent gift idea for everyone that I can whip out hopefully in time by Saturday. It's pretty exciting. But it's going to make me think. And I'm doing enough of that this week . . Well. Tomorrow is Wednesday. Which means Jrs practice, which is always a good thing. And then Thursday. Minado. <3 I can't wait to see everyone, I really miss them. And Friday I'm excited for because. I think I'm going to go look for a dress? And I'm excited to work on these presents. And Saturday is practice again. Woooo. Okay.
Wednesday: Yeap, Jrs practice was good, as always. <3 It was good. But. Really. Really. Tiring. Wow. Ankle is still an issue but. I'll figure it out. Uhm. Yay Jrs practice! Haha. Oh. And. More clarification. And telling of stories. Interestinggg.
Thursday: I don't think I've felt more humiliated my entire life. I... I can't. I can't do this.
Friday: Walking zombie legit, running on only two hours of sleep. Still chill, though.

I stayed up until 12 AM talking to songee online and using Facebook's Graffiti application. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN AND WE ENDED UP DRAWING ALL THE MEMBERS OF W-INDS., HAHAHAHA. I've never drawn fanart for a celebrity before so this was like the first time. Pictures will come soon...?

While gushing about w-inds., as usual, Allison piped up that SuJu's MV for Answer is out, so I decided to go look at it on a whim. Basically, it a soothing R&B beat with the chorus being from the original SORRY, SORRY song that came out earlier this year. In other words, it is an angsty song with a MV that is black and white just like the original MV for SORRY, SORRY. It is definitely a baby-maker.

( First impressions of the MV )

( Response about G-Dragon's sex act in his concert )

Last night, Allison showed me this book out of random and I realized that not only the book was called MOMO, but the logo bore an eerie resemblance to the logo for the manga MOMO by Sakai Mayu. Could it be that whoever designed the logo for the manga drew inspiration from this book? This is pretty strange. I'm pretty sure the person who designed the cover for the book doesn't know about the manga... will the designer sue Ribon? Unlikely, but could happen.

Also, does anyone remember the CG artist Hiromi? She was the website owner of Caramel Sugar Box, and ran the webcomics Lunar Souls and Cursed Wings, both of which she discontinued. I've followed both comics until she stopped them in 2004-2006, but recently, I came upon her newest comic, Alice Syndrome. Not to speak so negatively, but I feel that a lot of people use Alice in Wonderland themes so much that it's nearly suffocating, and I rather enjoyed her previous comics more, but it's still worth a read if you're a huge fan of her works.

[18:02] Lollerbladers: when I listen to the rap of Answer
[18:02] Lollerbladers: I keep thinking someone says "jiji"
[18:02] Lollerbladers: Which reminds me of Mack and Amie
[18:02] sleepypandie: LOLLLLOLLLLL

This is what Kamen Rider W does to you, as witnessed by my fellow friend marcadun, who I badgered to watch the series a couple of weeks ago:

[20:36] Jake: The other day when I was walking in school, I saw a guy who looked like Philip
[20:36] Jake: I felt lame for noticing...!!
[20:36] Jake: I swear to god he had the SAME EXACT hairstyle and SAME CLOTHES
[20:36] Josephine: OH MY GOD
[20:37] Josephine: WAS HE COSPLAYING
[20:37] Josephine: I WISH I COULD'VE SEEN
[20:37] Jake: I, I DON'T KNOW
[20:37] Josephine: PHILLIPPPPPP
[20:37] Josephine: FIRIPPUUUUUU

Also, I've been dipping into some of Beyoncé's music after being exposed to that godawful earworm that is Video Phone (seriously, the tune is so bad that the vocals don't match; it's only popular because Lady Gaga is in it for a minute and Beyoncé does more of her fan service flaunting). I somehow came upon a Watanabe Naomi video I had seen some months ago but this time I couldn't stop laughing. I guess Beyoncé is famous for her sexy dance in Japan, so that's what she will forever be known for. Forget her songs, it's all about the sexy dance!

Yeah, you have to watch it because Naomi starts approaching the male hosts and doing the sexy dance on them.

[19:42] Lollerbladers: I love how she approached the hosts randomly though
[19:42] sleepypandie: YEAH
[19:43] sleepypandie: he's likee
[19:43] Lollerbladers: :O
[19:43] sleepypandie: OoO
[19:43] sleepypandie: O__O + :O
[19:43] Lollerbladers: :O SURPRISE BUTTSEX
[19:43] sleepypandie: LOLLL

Speaking of music, since I was going to rip my last w-inds. CD for songee, I figured, why not share it with you all as well. I also ripped the first two albums from Perfume so here's a bonus.

1. w-inds. - Prime Of Life


2. Perfume - Complete Best


3. Perfume - GAME

You don't have to comment after downloading but if you get into any of their songs, tell me what you think!

To have feelings for a person
is taking all your time thinking
of things to say to that someone
staying up late into crackhead hours
then waking up to drink cups after cups of coffee
as you realize you’ve just smoked all your cigarettes
but still have nothing to say but ‘how are you.'
— Nes Cruz

Sunday: Crap.
Monday: I was out of class rehearsing with the choirs all day. Much needed break.
Tuesday: I don't remember.
Wednesday: I felt like today took forever to get to. Goodness. Practice. <3 Wednesdays are always good days. Or at least decent days, for several reasons: we played a fun game in AP Psych, I took a legitimate half-hour nap in Sociology, and, of course, Jrs practice. If my school day is crap I can at least count on practice being good. Even if I fail at learning a piece or something. I made the piece, GOOD, I better have especially since I skipped out on the concert. It was a good decision because we ended up re-auditioning today. And I made it. Good. Though I am a little bummed because I was hoping to be center group or something cause I thought I danced the piece pretty well; either way, I'm happy I'm still in the piece. And my buddy gave me more cookies. Yay. (: Dance life is the good life.
The only really bad thing so far these past few days would have to be my toleration for people. I don't why, but everyone's just getting on my nerves. My anxiety level has just been up and down and up and down lately. It's just winter kicking in, really. I need to go into hibernation. Until the holidays. Yeaaah.
Thursday: I love legitimate bonding at night at a restaurant/fastfoodjoint/wherever we are eating. <3 More often, please! Well more like a definite at least once-a-week or every-other-week type thing, anyway.
Friday: Apreez gets sung to by the cutest boy ever and it's like one of my favoritest songs in the world, WTF. I Swear This Time I Mean It by Mayday Parade. Add that one to last week's list. In other news, mmmm brownies. Paul Rudd makes me swoon in Clueless.
Saturday: Today was pretty good. Practice wasn't as intense; we just ran pieces and cleaned, staged more of the reggae piece, and did a staging exercise with Katrina's piece with the two other directors. I was really tired by the end of it though, and I only had one water bottle on me today. Nothing too exciting, but the new choreo for the reggae piece is hella fun. I really need to do something about my ankle. :/ Sigh. After practice I got some nomnoms, which made me significantly happier, lol. When I got home I just watched some of The Polar Express and watched makeup tutorials on YouTube. Then for about an hour or two I sat in my room and experimented with makeup. Conclusion: I really don't look that great with heavy makeup. Eyeliner, mascara, and natural/neutral shadows for me. I'm really considering asking for this for Christmas and experimenting like crazy. That and a copy of Along for the Ride, and I will definitely be satisfied; cardigans and scarves I could get at some other time.
Sunday: VERY chill day today. I just felt unmotivated to do something, hah. It's prolly the rainy weather. I woke up at around seven when my mom told me she and dad we going to church early. Ohkaaay. I woke up again around nine to find three adult male strangers in my room. I nearly flipped a shit. Our family friend was over with two workers fixing our roof, and they had to get up into the attic. The thing is, the entrance to our attic is in my room, so . . Hahaha. Well I got all my shit together and moved to the basement. From like ten to five I was down there, just on the computer, downloading music, or staring at the ceiling, eating Tostios with salsa and brownies and sitting with my ankle elevated, hahah. Yes, the weirdest combination ever. Awesome. Now I'm back up in my room, just sitting here and contemplating what to do with myself. I started working on Christmas gifts. Blaaaah. Can you believe it's already next week? Wtf.

I'm so exhausted and I'm so behind. I'm just waiting for the Christmas break (which won't really be a break since my mom scheduled my whole two weeks of free time with units. I'M NOT LYING, IT IS IN INK AND IN WRITTEN FORM TAPED TO THE DOOR OF MY CLOSET) and ya.

So. Hi LJ. Today I impulse-bought a military coat on eBay just because I have tonz of monz and don't know what to spend it on. I would spend it on friends but whenever I try to ask them it goes something like:

Me: So vat u wan 4 xmas
Them: O, idk
Me: O
Them: Ya
Me: Well you have to have some idea
Them: No.
Them: BTW DRAKE* IS SOOOOO CUTE!
*Drake is a codename for a boy they have a crush on. He is not of the cute variety.

And by "Them", I mean Mary.

If anyone asked me what I wanted, I could give them a whole list. Vintage film cameras, sparkly and/or two-tone tights, anything floral, a double-breasted cardigan, inky pens, good books... the list goes on. But no, Cidel's getting me cattie make-up. It's all good. I forgive them both. I especially forgive Mary, because she's been writing erotica fanfiction about Life With Derek since grade eight. Lol I'm dead serious.

Anyway, I re-joined Tumblr and update it way more than this. But they're mostly reblogs/random stuff I find amusing. Most of the time, they're too clever for me and the most I can think of for a comment is "LOL" or "HAHAHAH" and then I feel stupid and unoriginal. But now I'm typing this entry and the words are flowing! Like a coursing river! With all the force of a great typhoon! With all the strength of a raging fire! Mysterious as the dark side of

THE MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooOOOOOOOON


Actually, no.

Semi-formal: I didn't even notice until I read Emma's entry. I thought it was next week or something and started freaking out. But no, it's at the end of January. Lol @ people getting so hyped so early on in the game. But since we're on that topic, no chance in hell is the boy I want to ask me asking me; and no chance in hell am I setting myself up for disappointment again. I'm going to channel all my energy/delay an onslaught of depression by finding a pretty dress instead! Problem solved.

In other news, Inggrid and her mother fight about units! Bisexuals are everywhere! Inggrid's career takes a downwards plunge as she gets demoted! Inggrid and her mother fight about units! Inggrid's mother won a new iPod Touch that can handle apps like I Am T-Pain! Inggrid laughs at I Am T-Pain! Life still sucks! Inggrid and her mother fight about units! Glitter! Rainbows! And unicorns!

Yawn.

Beware of some grammatically incorrect Japanese.

( Our dream )

[00:04] Lollerbladers: No, what I meant to say is KEITA TO RYUICHI WO RABURABUSHITE SAIKOU DESUUUU
[00:05] sleepypandie: o_o
[00:05] sleepypandie: can I request translation
[00:05] sleepypandie: lovelove?
[00:06] Lollerbladers: Keita and Ryuichi being lovey dovey is the best
[00:07] sleepypandie: HHHAHHAHAHAHHAHHA
[00:08] Lollerbladers: ffff if you say that people will beat you up
[00:08] sleepypandie: ..:x
[00:08] sleepypandie: my accent would probably be so bad it'd be like mac trying to say wo jiji xiao
[00:10] Lollerbladers: LOOOOL

UNDERLINED FOR EMPHASIS.

AMIE IS NEVER TEACHING ANYONE CHINESE AGAIN.

P.S. If you don't know what "wo jiji xiao" means, it means "my penis is small."

Like I said before, there will always be a time and place in which I will flip out about my dancing.

. . . That's all on that issue.

Right now, my goal point is January 2nd. January 2nd. That's the day I've probably spend the past year dreaming about, dreaming when I didn't even know it was going to exist, the day that people are in an audience and the day that I will be on a stage with some of the best dancers my age on the east coast. I will be in a YouTube video and I will be able to search it and point myself out in the outfit I will probably have burned into my memory for the rest of my life. And this time around, it will be a YouTube video in which I won't be stumbling or messing up: it's one I'm going to kill. Fuck yeah.

It's more or less a month away. I feel that high coming on already.

Get it, Katrina. Don't give up or let one fail day mess you up for the rest of this year. January 2nd. It's the day you've been dreaming about.